Poems

Sometimes I hold back to write about her So today I express the last piece that I hold about her Memories with her, this smile about her I guess in the midst of hate it’s hard to write what I love about her In the midst of love we shared moments I hold like grudges At first sight fell of my crutches, nothing I’m used to But she is something I am amused to see, touch, love Damn Love, I’m not supposed to talk about that? But Love and hate are the same feeling We love just to mask the past of our past lovers scarring We hate in search of a safe dissociative time of healing In the midst of her love I felt like the sky is no limit Her smile a gentle light stroke on a soft blue canvas Calm like a whispered promise, I liked to see as I woke up Around her I’d stop and breathe just a little softer Fleeting magic of a cherry blossom wished I could hold her A little longer but I have been taught nothing lasts forever Now that she’s gone I’m stack in abandoned houses with no ceiling In the midst of what I thought is hate i still love her Like cracked vases, broken yet still holding these withered roses Beautiful moments touched by time, but with time I hope our path crosses Again, and we can look at a washed clean sky shyly wearing a rainbow Like a smile after the tears I shed when I let go Or maybe I am stupid and don’t see the bigger picture of all this Cherry blossom pink snowflakes that bloom only to teach us the beauty of letting go.

In rooms built from yesterday’s light, we linger where shadows still speak. The walls remember what we forget, the echoes return when silence grows weak. We hold to the dust of vanished hours, to voices folded deep in our chest. Grief is a tenant we cannot evict, memory a guest we cannot rest. Between the past and the promise of dawn, we root ourselves where time stood still. Not moving on, not moving back so we dwell.

There are words he's careful to utter in her presence They are her words, can't have enough like golden raisins Forbidden words that would tragically hurt their bond Words that crashed her past crushes she's glad they are gone Words like snowflakes cold yet bold I love you, three words hardly, barely sold Words from stories untold he knows would spark a flame Words so dangerous they want them free yet hard to tame Toxic He tells Toxic her harsh words yet they forgive While Healthy he couldn't whisper to healthy her now in silence he grieves Violent turbulent rumbles the words in his heart Yet calm as the spring valleys from his mouth they depart Though these words eagerly wait to bloom like tulips in summer Her heart might not be ready to receive words like mi amor Words louder than kisses words of implications Words louder than their feelings words of simplification Words spoken against the wind lost before their destination Words spoken too soon, now only have memories in resonation Words spoken late from a diner past their date words of his creation Words meant for her to smile to praise her imperfection Words that made her cry but tears are the true love indication Words that strip every fabric of her soul He knows those words perfectly He holds them dearly maybe he might hand them to her in the season fall At least she won't see him cry in the rain Strip off his shirt with words like "I want to drain" Words that can once again cleanse the stain Of what He has created, words to disguise his love and pain.

I've seen the perfect cry, In flaws our strongest rise to shine In our thoughts a leap of faith we hope it olds like wine In our dreams a formless self were we can cross the line

We could be floating in open space Flawed as we abandon the morning moon Well, they call it sunrise Beautiful white Formless Sunny Summer blue background Damn, it's already five p.m Sunset, I hate it, we're getting cold They kind of admire us Even if we're letting go

The world's asleep tell me about your little secrets On how you bloom on dew and you quite discreet Yeah, I'm quite mystic I read you through your face And we could grow wings to try to fly away to space But the earth don't wanna be lonely so gravity takes place It's a tragedy we gotta face bittersweet love is a mess And Bold I'm told when bored it flows for pretence's sake But how long can we fake till it can finally work And how long can we be till we can say we free It's not long till love finally settles in we Hell yes she was pretty heavenly God lost an angel Hell yes we took pictures by the hill in the sunny weather You Beautiful but nothing is forever I mean look at the sunshine girl it don't shine forever But if it did we wouldn't learn to cherish it Wouldn't know what blemish is

You were my light my path in the dark You made me believe in fantasy rainbows with no sun You opened a part of me I partially don't like You I still think of every night and this ain't right You and I a dream that couldn't make it through despair You and I couldn't be for what's a dream when it be real You said it's about feel but what I can't see can't be real You was what I saw but my heart was to conceal You were heaven sent a saint with roses scent You still left with no words said I sit down and look at our memories fade I still have our book with one final blank page I stare at the front door closely hoping you return I see days turn night as our book slowly burns I now in a place where the love word is forbidden Stones turned Bridges burnt All feels are hidden I look around oh yes this is the place that I longly needed

The Flower blooms at noon Doomed at dawn I'm alone Hoping you come back soon Save me as I drown in this dune Confess love on full moons Spilling feeling ain't common I speak calmly to you Thinking calmly about you But this love ain't that true Can't last a day like some dew Due to lack to work through Our love ends exactly at curfew Took every step towards you careful Wondering when next I'll see you This little memories I'll cherish cheerful Because I guess I'll never see you

We met when we were still teens I remember you only had one friend Around I tend to act like I didn't care I sucker punched myself watch the blood splatter Too shy to say something that will make you flatter My head under the water I was lost We hid our feeling but at what cost We could let them out and vacay by the coast We run We ran from our emotions We don't even wanna blue tick nor reply Maybe cause I'm still a boy And I feel stronger when I lie I can't be a man it's hard for me to cry And although it might seem we ain't ready I'm back to were I started from Your Smile Your smile is definitive Of the ocean's pearls beauty in relative Your heart is probably why the moonlight Shines I feel it over me It's cold like when we bored Our feeling untold untrue to being us Your eyes a white phoenix at night that blooms into a lotus Your face sings grace staring at you gets me stuck in a maze I'm quite amazed at what I gaze You beautiful, to you is just another phrase From the very first day I saw you Like a kid staring at his favorite candy I couldn't stop but imagine how I'd feel having you in the palm of my hand How sweet your love would taste when our feelings are outta hand Secretly longing for the day I say I love you The day birds hum a mellifluous rhythm Soothing to our ears and we lose control and fall in love Not falling cause we want to but fall cause we are meant to Love at first sight in a dark room you were light Saw you across the room as further as the stars From the earth on which we lie But yet feel close at night When I raise my hand to the sky A blessing to ever walk on ground Now I believe not every angel should fly A load on us that we will always want to win But if it was that easy we'd all be clean Were our ending flourish better than were we begin Truth or lies which is the better scene? I've seen the perfect cry In flaws our strongest rise to shine In our thoughts a leap of faith we hope it olds like wine In our dreams a formless self were we can cross the line.

Interdimensional our love was so irrational I'm from another planet you a beehive I a hornet Black and yellow I was faking You came close I panic My heartbeat supersonic Our connection telepathic It's Unearthly how our bodies are electric How you move but yet you static Ungodly hours you got ecstatic I can't lie that was exciting Your beauty is inviting Personality repulsive My love for you was massive But our love was unrequited You hard to love I see Now you just my fantasy Our love on a brink of extinction We blink into existence Wink to show no resistance Never knew eyes could be puissant You and I through the future past present Oh I got you a present With a bouquet and cheesecake we eat and laugh And tryna make it we tryna make it through the Hardest moments forgot in love Darkest times lit up by love